Some of these started as poems. Some are lyrics waiting for a melody. Others are just pieces of me I couldn't keep inside. I might turn these into full songs—or maybe they’ll stay just like this. Either way, they’re real. They’re mine.
[Verse 1] I read the messages like scripture Every typo felt like truth You said, “I’m fine,” but you were drowning And I never made it up to you Staring down at my screen Softly dying in the street Is this even real, or just A ghost I never meant to meet? [Verse 2] Overflow of emotions I never thought I’d have to feel I never got the closure But I still wrote you something real I held on longer than I should Made too many excuses, said “I’m just awkward” But then the silence felt like screaming And I fell apart like clockwork [Transition Verse] But someone else found me broken And tried to love what I couldn’t fix She held my hand while I was drowning But I was stuck in someone else’s myth [Verse 3] You weren’t the one who broke me But you held the shattered parts Tried to tape up all my silence With soft hands and a borrowed heart I smiled when I was with you But it never reached my eyes You were there when I was lonely But I couldn’t tell you why [Verse 4] You gave me something gentle When my world was cracked and mean But I was haunted by a memory Of what I lost at seventeen I kissed you just to feel whole But the pieces didn’t fit You asked if I still missed her And I never answered it [Chorus] I let you down, I let you go You needed me, I didn’t show I said “I’m fine,” I lied instead Now you live rent-free inside my head I should’ve stayed, I disappeared You cried, and I just wasn’t near You’re unforgettable, and that’s the truth I’m still in love with losing you [Bridge] I missed the dance I missed your eyes I laughed too loud when you cried inside I called it love But I stayed afraid Now you’re a memory I can’t unmake [Final Chorus] I let you down, I let you go You needed me, but I’ll never know I said “I’m fine,” I lied instead Now you live rent-free inside my head I should’ve stayed, I disappeared You cried, and I just wasn’t near You’re unforgettable, and that’s the truth I was never someone worthy of you
[Verse 1] I told you I was broken you said that you could fix me Now you’re pulling shards of “I love you” From where you used to kiss me I warned you I’m a landslide Disguised as something safe You smiled through the tremors Now you’re buried in my blame [Pre-Chorus] And I swear I never meant to ruin you But everything I touch turns black and blue [Chorus] My heart's a black hole, and you’re still falling in I scream apologies of agony from underneath my skin I built a coffin out of every lie I told Lit the match and started fires with the last thing that you wrote [Post-Chorus] You should’ve run, when I said I’d break Now I'm the ghost you cant unmake [Verse 2] I write your name in razors Across my paper skin Bleeding metaphors for closure But they never sink in I’m sorry I romanticized My self destruction You kissed the gun I pulled the trigger with your trust in [Pre-Chorus] Don’t pretend I didn’t warn you loud I’m the storm you drowned in, screaming out [Chorus] My heart's a black hole, and you’re still falling in The teardrops that are rolling down my face are my only medicine I said I’d ruin ruin everything I love But you said "promises are everything, and I promise I’m enough” [Post-Chorus] Now your goodbye is all I wear Just like a noose made from your hair [Bridge – Screamed Vocals] I HATE ME MORE THAN YOU EVER COULD EVERY MIRROR SHATTERS JUST LIKE IT SHOULD I LEFT A MAP TO MY REGRET YOU FOLLOWED IT, AND THAT’S WHAT YOU GET [Final Chorus – Layered Vocals] My heart's a black hole, and you’re still falling in I loved you wrong, its all my fault, you know that I will never win You stitched me up before but, I think I've torn again Maybe you're too good for me your light could never fit this skin [Post-Chorus] I begged you not to see me through Now all that’s left of me is you [Outro – Whispered/Soft Vocals] You should’ve run… I told you so. But you stayed. And now you know.)